It's been about a month and a half since my breakup and I thought things were getting better...but due to circumstances which involve her with another guy after everything she told me about taking a break and sorting out her life, I've found myself at extreme unrest and anxiety. Maybe it's because she's 18 and he's 27, maybe it's because I feel like I've been lied to, betrayed, taken advantage of, unappreciated, maybe it's because I feel she's turned her back on Christ, or that it's possible she planned to be with him all along, or maybe it's just me...but I'm bothered. I don't mean to rant, but I don't think I deserved any of that. So that's the end, I want nothing to do with it, and from this point on I'll be staying out of it. I'm not asking questions, I'm not talking to her, and most of all: I take comfort knowing there aren't any situations in which I'll be obligated to see her again. The girl I once loved disappeared, became someone else.
So scratch that...I did mean to rant, and I feel glad I did. I know there must be someone out there who's willing to stick with a guy not afraid of commitment, who can promise that he will always love her.
I've only been working once a week now that school's started up again but I still found myself with plenty of free time this week. I suppose it's because the workload isn't that much to bear...yet. Third year has officially started in the way that...I'm getting assignments to actually work on. I imagine that sometime after the first midterms the workload will increase even more. I'm taking 5 courses plus a 6th online (which I have yet to start anything on) and it looks like I'll be able to bear this. This is my first time keeping a planner because I know I'd probably forget something as I have twice as much to keep track of and lots of team things I need to find time to meet for. I'll be updating my portfolio very soon. I don't have much done that's worthy to be put up just yet, but I can say I am working on an analysis diagram of the materials of a dismantled PSX controller. That'll be cool to show.
For those of you who have counted on my blog for figure photography, I apologize because September I only have two figmas coming (Miku and Kagami). I am, however, happy to report, that they are in shipping. Expect everything back on track next week. In between figure shipments I'll be talking about my design-related projects for school.
Friday, September 12, 2008